The caterpillar who transformed

What is growth? What does growth look like in one's life? What does the innerstanding of growth do to one's confidence, self-esteem, soul, mindset and being. What does growing look like to you? Religion has taught us that we must go through the growing pains of life to get to the other side? But what does that other side look like for you? What does it feel like? Is it dark and gloomy? Or is it sunflowers and sunlight? Who do you become? 

Taking you back through a journey of growth and evolution. For some reason or another my evolution began in 2015. I didn’t ask to begin, however, I started to question my beliefs, the systems, doctrines and religion taught to me as a child. Along with questioning came answers. And a lot of those answer came through the relationship I developed with God and myself. With growth comes isolation. Why isolation? Isolation gives the ability to be cleaned and cleared fully of all thought patterns and beliefs that have been programmed into our conscious and subconscious mind unknowingly. Coincidentally, isolation can also be described as an emptying process in order for you to be filled to the highest capacity of self. Now for all my religious people you will not understand beyond the doctrines that have been created to keep you sleep, docile and mute. But don’t forget we were made in "his" image. 

 I'm going to call my journey "The evolution of becoming Anesha Joy." In order to become; you first have to find. Given a high level over view, this journey simultaneously felt and resembled an individual navigating through a muddy murky trench while having to entrust the compass instilled by God. A lower level view of my journey can be described as peace, strength, determination, resilience, purging, introspection, self-awareness, giving voice to traumatic experiences, healing, finding and using my own voice, setting healthy boundaries with other's and learning how to fill my own cup while pouring into other's from my overflow. As the magnificent Maya Angelou wrote "I know why the cage bird sings." The beauty of growth gives way for freedom to exist.  

Best said by Tupac Shakur - 

You see you wouldn't ask why the rose that grew from the concrete 
Had damaged petals. On the contrary, we would all celebrate its 
Tenacity. We would all love it's will to reach the sun 
Well, we are the roses - this is the concrete - and these are 
My damaged petals. Don't ask me why, thank God nigga, ask me how!